my tv remote broke yesterday making me unable to turn my tv on/off/do anything at all on it even when i replaced the batteries! whew! well thats okay... i have my wonderful disc drive !! ive been lazy for a while but today i finally took it out so i could rip some of my fav cds because i have alot that i dont use !! batteries are sure expensive when u listen to music basically 10 hours a day !! im always out so i only listen to my cds once in a while on my portable player and when im in a car / when im at home !! so how awesome will it be to rip all my favs and put them all on itunes !! and woahh ! whats that ?? my disc drive is broken ?? my laptop isnt recognizing my disc drive ?? oh okay !! now i cant even watch any of my dvds because my tv is broken !! how amazing and awesome and cool for this to happen now of all times !! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! maybe this is some sort of divine punishment for not being ontop of my class work . okay ! okay ! okay ! everything is so awesome and cool . normally on a day like this i would whip out my the who the kids are alright (1979) special edition dvd and unwind while my eyes and ears are blessed with the natural beauty of  Peter Dennis Blandford Townshend but god hates me and i cant even do that . i must deal with the shittier youtube version in shittier quality on a shittier device . okay ! it doesn't even matter ! god is getting mad at me because im not reading enough or something deep like that . okay ... checkmate .... i still need my emotional support pete townshend forgive me for much of him below he makes me happy and he makes me feel better 

soft kitty warm kitty little ball or fur...

happy kitty sleepy kitty purr purr purr.....

(normally i watch this video warm and cozy in my bed cuddled up in my sheets gazing at all of the appearances of PETE TOWNSHEND on all of the posters surrounding me while this plays on my working tv in the background but today i am sadly hunched over my laptop in an uncomfortable metal chair. all of my posters are out of view behind me. woe is me)

 when i find myself doing nothing for more than 2 days straight it makes me feel like im going crazy and i freak out a bit (╥﹏╥) sometimes i go a while for feeling okay with the things i am doing but then i let myself fall into the cycle that im so use to of doing nothing at all (╥﹏╥) going from going out all the time and being really active to having to push myself out of bed just to eat and shower (╥﹏╥) but at least im doing those things ! when i get like this its important that even the small things are important because back 4 years ago i couldn't even get up to take a shower and make actual meals for myself so look how far ive come !! sometimes just a little walk or a chapter of a book or even just a walk downstairs is all it takes to feel better again . i cant let myself go back to how things were when i was younger ! i have so much time to improve myself and the best time to start is now ! rome wasnt built in a day !! rewatch ur old favorite movie and listen to ur old favorite music and take a nap and life will get better ! (ᴗ˳ᴗ)ᶻ𝗓𐰁

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 my new laptop HAS ARRIVED.... how beautiful ! but bad bad bad news... its windows 11 :'/ this is OKAY! i can make this work! i will do more computer things later but in a meantime i shall give a small life update and probably upload this blogs look.

i went to riot this weekend! didnt take any pictures other than the last day. It was chilly and it rained and it was so so so so much fun !!! friday i skipped school and we saw 3oh!3 (they had very very cute and fun visuals... i wish i took a video!!) and bayside and alkaline trio and we stuck around for all american rejects and rise against. friday was the only day it didnt rain... i got very very close to alkaline trio and they hurt my ears... all part of the fun! saturday was a bit boring, we went to see thrice but that was really it. it rained a little, but not bad. Sunday was fun and the best! it rained so much and we had to wait half an hour in the pouring rain for them to open the gates! it was freezing and we didnt have ponchos! and it was so much fun! we saw pretty girls make graves, taking back sunday, and mom jeans. it was so muddy. mom jeans pit got mud up to my thighs and my boots covered and the crowd surfers kept falling and it was such an amazing show and the uber was late and we sat in the wet cold but it was worth it because mom jeans are amazing and i am happy.

taking back sunday and mom jeans on my shitty camrea. peep the video... my mic either broke or has been broken because my digicam is cheap and fake. fun fun fun 

nothing else super interesting has happened in my life. one of my cats is suffering health issues and its making me sad and making me realize both me and them are getting old. its okay because nothing lasts forever, i shouldnt worry when they are here now, i have to stay thankful for that.

 

the greatest song in the whole world. early len reminds me of the transition between the summer and fall. 

i am going to hopefully get a laptop in the next few weeks and that means real work on my neocities! its very oc centerd rn but when i have a computer i think ill make it more personal with a bunch of stuff... i wanna start rating albums and films and i think adding an embedd to a seprate blog for that in my neocities would be cool !!! i like making website things its just so hard without a laptop... im hyped