(typed out the night of oct. 7. 2026... fell asleep before i posted :

i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  i love i love  ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡  its october and the nights and the mornings are colddddd and the afternoons are warmmmm and everything is beautiful and nothing else matters because why should itt and i am living life one day at a time and never worrying about the future because life is too long to rush and life is too short worry )

today :

today i had to get my cavaties filled which is basically my personal hell because i have a low pain tolerance and extreme fear of needles and i hate doctors in my mouth so i stressed all day.

it is okay because everything is okay. basically free day to morrow and no class on monday . this means everything will be okay

my favorite artist back in freshman year that was my entire personality that saved me was car seat headrest and ive been listening alot again and i was sort of deterred because of bad memory and relation to people i dont talk to anymore but who cares i was the og i liked them first ive always been the csh guy mtm furever peace and love 

Don't you realize our bodies could fall apart at any second?

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 it is a MODEST MOUSE MONDAY MORNING because we will all truly ALL FLOAT ON OKAY

 its october and the air is cool and everything is amazing. i have one million things to look forward to and nothing at all to worry about. 

life is all about finding all of the love and positivity in little normal mundane things. ive been really trying to change my mindset and just by trying to find good in my normal life is helping me a lot. wow, the way the sun shines through my window this time of the year is really pretty. wow the sound of the rain on the roof is really therapeutic tonight. the way the sun shines through the leaves in the trees is really pretty this time of the day while it shines on my desk. wow i never noticed the bassline in this song, its really good. even if he is annoying sometimes i am glad my cat likes to meow loudly in the morning because he helps me get up. i never noticed how pretty the buildings are on the walk home from the bus. wow, the reflection of the sky in this puddle is very pretty. wow, im sleepy. im glad i have a warm bed to sleep in right here behind me. even if its cold in my room i can look forward to tomorrow and not sleeping alone. how lovely is it doing mundane things with people u love. tonight im glad to be happy ( _　_ )💤

today i finally made a varwolf in neopets !! its the first day of october and i got a chai latte. i went shopping and got some cds and dvds and books. i bought my old fav album on bandcamp for $3. its october! everything is okay ! goodnight godspeed i love you all its almost friday ฅ^>⩊<^ ฅ

 my tv remote broke yesterday making me unable to turn my tv on/off/do anything at all on it even when i replaced the batteries! whew! well thats okay... i have my wonderful disc drive !! ive been lazy for a while but today i finally took it out so i could rip some of my fav cds because i have alot that i dont use !! batteries are sure expensive when u listen to music basically 10 hours a day !! im always out so i only listen to my cds once in a while on my portable player and when im in a car / when im at home !! so how awesome will it be to rip all my favs and put them all on itunes !! and woahh ! whats that ?? my disc drive is broken ?? my laptop isnt recognizing my disc drive ?? oh okay !! now i cant even watch any of my dvds because my tv is broken !! how amazing and awesome and cool for this to happen now of all times !! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! okay ! maybe this is some sort of divine punishment for not being ontop of my class work . okay ! okay ! okay ! everything is so awesome and cool . normally on a day like this i would whip out my the who the kids are alright (1979) special edition dvd and unwind while my eyes and ears are blessed with the natural beauty of  Peter Dennis Blandford Townshend but god hates me and i cant even do that . i must deal with the shittier youtube version in shittier quality on a shittier device . okay ! it doesn't even matter ! god is getting mad at me because im not reading enough or something deep like that . okay ... checkmate .... i still need my emotional support pete townshend forgive me for much of him below he makes me happy and he makes me feel better 

soft kitty warm kitty little ball or fur...

happy kitty sleepy kitty purr purr purr.....

(normally i watch this video warm and cozy in my bed cuddled up in my sheets gazing at all of the appearances of PETE TOWNSHEND on all of the posters surrounding me while this plays on my working tv in the background but today i am sadly hunched over my laptop in an uncomfortable metal chair. all of my posters are out of view behind me. woe is me)

 when i find myself doing nothing for more than 2 days straight it makes me feel like im going crazy and i freak out a bit (╥﹏╥) sometimes i go a while for feeling okay with the things i am doing but then i let myself fall into the cycle that im so use to of doing nothing at all (╥﹏╥) going from going out all the time and being really active to having to push myself out of bed just to eat and shower (╥﹏╥) but at least im doing those things ! when i get like this its important that even the small things are important because back 4 years ago i couldn't even get up to take a shower and make actual meals for myself so look how far ive come !! sometimes just a little walk or a chapter of a book or even just a walk downstairs is all it takes to feel better again . i cant let myself go back to how things were when i was younger ! i have so much time to improve myself and the best time to start is now ! rome wasnt built in a day !! rewatch ur old favorite movie and listen to ur old favorite music and take a nap and life will get better ! (ᴗ˳ᴗ)ᶻ𝗓𐰁

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